A Little 'Bout Myself: Well, I've been drawing since middle school, I'm now working towards an AA and hopefully transferring to CSUN next Fall. My goals are to get into Illustration as well as Teach art. A new passion for fashion design has bloomed and I just might get into that. That could be fun to have my own funky line of clothing.
Please feel free to contact me here or Nethingbutordinary.deviantart.com.
July 21st 2009
I am trying to hone in on my digital art skills and once I get into school again, there will be more traditional things on the way.
Do the best you can, with what you have, and where you are and while dreamers are hurt most by truth, don't let that truth get you down. Put band-aids on those scabs and keep going. Always stay true to you and your beliefs because you never know who is looking up to you and counting on your guidance.
All my watchers, friends, and supporters. I wouldn't know what to think of myself if I didn't have you guys pointing out what I did wrong and right. You're all like my second pair of eyes, and I want to let you know you're all appreciated!
:) Keep creating art and never give up.
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Train crash of thoughts...posted Oct 29th 2009, 12:45PM
Mood: Blah
(Taken from DA So if you read it there, it's the same thing with few modifications)
So, I haven't been submitting things with such consistency as I used to due to the fact that I'm working, doing school, and playing far too much WoW and Forever Katamari. However, I felt upon looking at my page views that I should thank you guys. Almost at 6666 views(as of a few seconds ago)...which isn't so bad for not being incredibly active.
I suppose the reasons I don't submit artwork with as much energy as I used to is because 1. I'm not really finishing anything, 2. I'm not getting favorites/views/comments on the art that I do submit, 3. I'm too lazy to scan my school stuff in, and 4. I'm simply not drawing/writing as much as I used to.
Am I loosing my umph? Has something been turned upside down in the brain of Grapey here?
Maybe.
Sometimes I wonder if I've grown out of something that used to fuel the fire to my inspiration and my creativity.
However, with this Figure Drawing Project I've now completed, new hope has arisen. I can use and wield watercolors to create something believable and pretty and something people want to look at. I stepped back from my project last night(it's huge, 5ft by 2ft, It was taped to my wall) and was like, "Damn, this looks great. If only I were able to come up with this concept earlier so I could have more time to do it, perfect it, make it really mine."
Edit I had the critique on that piece yesterday and it really made me feel like I let everyone down. To hear the main thing "You did good, but you could have done better" just made me feel like crap honestly. The poses of the characters may have been safe, but the project as a whole was a step outside of my comfort zone. It makes me now feel like I'm unprepared to go to CSUN. Like my skills aren't up to par.
I've noticed how somethings just don't translate well from original intent to "finished" and I think that's what has been discouraging me as of late. I've been in this "perfectionist" rut and all I can think about is "finishing" stuff when really all I need to do is...draw.create.have fun.enjoy. I need to get out more is my conclusion. Hang with my friends. Re-connect with old friends(facebook lol).
I need to go to the Getty(or any museum really). I love that place. I always feel so small when I'm walking around the upstairs where the paintings are and see these MASSIVE paintings that people spent days and days on and they've been preserved and I think of the things I've done and even I've forgotten already what I've done. My own work.
So yea, I miss you guys I guess.
6 weeks left in the fall semester. 1 More semester until CSUN. I'm a little scared that I wont be able to perform to their standards. 3 More years until I can teach. I'm a little scared that I wont be able to manage a class, 5 classes, 5 days a week. I'm also afraid of being the "young" teacher.
Everything will work out in the end but right now, growing up is pretty scary. 7 months until I'm 21. 10 months until my sister is 18.
Oh man, dude, I had a faint dream about you today. D8 I dunno why but I had a dream that I read a journal of yours and you broke up with your boyfriend. ;_; It made me feel terrible!
Yeah it is weird when I dream of friends online. Sometimes they do end up coming true when it's a lot clearer than the dream I had about you. Some reason you were bi in it.
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